9. Turn This Around

INTRODUCTION:
I have anxiety. It has affected me for the better part of my life without even realizing it. After moving to a different state and becoming a full time musician, stress started to get the best of me. I felt very discouraged about pursuing my music, and I was losing sight of all the stuff worth fighting for. When I started to doubt something that I’ve wanted for as long as I can remember, it was a wake up call. I made A LOT of changes in my life. Today, anxiety and depression no longer control my life, and I couldn’t be happier or more proud of myself. Turn This Around is about being down, but picking myself up again. To anyone else who has suffered or felt the same way I have, don’t EVER give up. Life is a beautiful thing, even if you can’t always see it.

LYRICS:

Verse 1: I lost my voice trying to sing too loud. 
I lost my way trying to fight through the crowd. 
Now I’m too far, too far gone. 
I’ve gone too far, too far alone… And I say, 

CHORUS: Can I turn this around? 
How can I turn this around? 
Gotta find the light I lost on the way, 
Remember why I fight in the first place. 
‘Cause I, I’ve gotta turn this around. 

Verse 2: I lost my will after so many years. 
I lost my fight after facing these fears. 
But I’m too strong, too strong to let go. 
Been singing too long, too long to stop now. So I say, 

CHORUS: Can I turn this around?  
How can I turn this around?  
Gotta find the light I lost on the way,  
Remember why I fight in the first place.  
​‘Cause I, I’ve gotta turn this around. 

Bridge: I’ve been dying but I’m on fire. 
I’ve been burn down to the ground. 
I’ve been lost but I am found. 
I’ve gone too far now. 
And I, I’m gonna turn this around. 
So I say,

CHORUS: Can I turn this around? 
How can I turn this around? 
I’ve been feeling lost for so long, 
Holding my breath, hoping I’m found. 
But I, I’ve gotta turn this around.

LYRIC ANALYSIS:

I lost my voice trying to sing too loud.  - Literally. This was when I was feeling overwhelmed by needing to busk 2-3 times a day just to pay my bills.
I lost my way trying to fight through the crowd.  
Now I’m too far, too far gone.  
I’ve gone too far, too far alone… And I say,  - I wanted the verse to have a darker, more minor feel, and then have the chorus be more hopeful. "And I say" is the switch.

Can I turn this around?  
How can I turn this around?  
Gotta find the light I lost on the way,  
Remember why I fight in the first place.  - I lost sight of my happiness and why I loved music (and life) to begin with.
‘Cause I, I’ve gotta turn this around.  

I lost my will after so many years.  - I had almost given up on my lifelong dream of being a musician.
I lost my fight after facing these fears.  
But I’m too strong, too strong to let go.  - But I will NEVER give up.
Been singing too long, too long to stop now. So I say,  

Can I turn this around?   
How can I turn this around?   
Gotta find the light I lost on the way,   
Remember why I fight in the first place.   
​‘Cause I, I’ve gotta turn this around.  

I’ve been dying but I’m on fire.  - I was having a hard time, but I will never let my fire go out.
I’ve been burned down to the ground.  
I’ve been lost but I am found.  
I’ve gone too far now.  
And I, I’m gonna turn this around.  - Even after what felt like the end of the world, I will turn it around.
So I say, 

Can I turn this around?  
How can I turn this around?  
I’ve been feeling lost for so long,  
Holding my breath, hoping I’m found.  - ​I had crippling anxiety, yet I had no idea what I was waiting for that would magically make it better. So I took it upon myself.
But I, I’ve gotta turn this around. - And I am so lucky to say that I DID turn it around. Life is beautiful.

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